On May 24th Ashton will be 6 months old! I can't believe 6 months have passed since his birth. Pregnancy seemed to last forever but since Ashton is here and I am helping him experience the "outside" world, I can't believe half a year is over. Ashton was born 2 days before Thanksgiving, a Thanksgiving I will never forget. This little man came into my life and my life has been joyful ever since. I love being a mom, it has been more than I ever expected. Of course, there was a time when I gave up expecting to be a mom. That was a difficult time in my life. So much of my energy was spent being sad even though I put on a good face. I tried my best to not let my sadness affect the joy other people had with the birth of their own children. I did find a way to cope with the sadness, it involved babysitting and spending time with my amazing niece and nephews. I have always loved taking them places, playing with them, and buying them things. It is hard to believe that they are so grown up now. Cole is 18 and graduating from high school, Charlie is 14 and finishing 8th grade, and Sydney just turned 12 and will start 7th grade in the fall. I am so proud of the 3 of them. They are amazing kids and I love spending time with them as teens, but I miss them needing me or enjoying my silliness. If I say something somewhat silly (which used to be funny to them,) they are totally embarrassed. Embarrassing them does have its charms, but I miss the genuine laughter over something I said that was funny or how they seemed to look up to me. Taking a strong interest and playing a role in their lives helped me to cope better with my infertility problem. I love them so much and am so glad they are a part of my little Ashton's life. He has 3 wonderful cousins who love him and I know they will be good examples so he has someone to look up to.